This has been the fastest year of my life. I blinked 3 times and the ITU off-road tri World Championships are already here again (swim 1500 meters, mountain bike 30k, trail run 10K). Just 3 weeks ago, I did my first off-road triathlon since standing on the podium in Spain. It conveniently fell within my schedule to help sweep out the cobwebs and get me back in race mode. I was 2nd overall, handily losing to a pro woman, Shea Vaughan, reminding me of my ranks as an age grouper in off-road triathlon.
The next week, as if I wasn’t already humbled enough, I got a good thrashing at my first TMBRA race (Texas Mtn Bike Race) since 2003…or at least that was the last year I actually owned a mtn bike racing license. Unfortunately that license renewed as a pro, and I was thrown into the cage with the young pros that dished me out more humble pie. Standing on the starting line, I knew I was in trouble when I found out Jessica Rawlins, the eventual winner, was the age of my oldest son.
But I am resilient, and my youngest son and coach, Danielson, tells me I went into that race tired, and now tapered, I will rise to the occasion for the World Championships on May 19th. I hope he is right.
I shouldn’t carry the burdens of the pros like Shonny Vanlandingham and Melanie McQuaid, but I still get just as anxious. That’s what age group racing is for; when you can’t compete at that level anymore. I’ve got work, my family and extracurricular activities that leave most of my family and friends wondering when I will slow down. I can’t even answer that question myself. I just know I still feel like I did in my 30s, but on the outside, I look my age, 48. It is irritating now that even people older than me call me “Maam”.
My last training day was yesterday afternoon, at the culmination of a day packed with so many different work deadlines and data in my brain. I wanted to explode. But I couldn’t, I had to cram it all in, and do one more bike ride at Northshore trail on my home course at Lake Grapevine, followed by one more brick run.
I unwound my mind as I blasted through the last hour of trees on my mtn bike. This was my last set of 6 race pace intervals, 5 minutes on, 5 minutes off, repeat. The last 2 days of work had left my mind spinning ~ I had paid our event bills from the past weekend, worked a booth at tri-night at Richardson Bike Mart, sent email addresses to our photographer of all our racers, read an article a friend emailed me regarding a superwoman athlete and how she trains, fixed a few registration issues for our next event, finalized and approved a promotional flyer with a deadline of today, talked with a sponsor in Moab UT to finalize our awards ceremony/party of a summer race, signed on a new sponsor for all our races (Sport Beans) and added logo and link to all pages on website, updated changes for another sponsor logo on our website, applied for sponsorship with a new company, finished and approved t-shirt design for our next race, finalized our new business card and 5 new sponsor banners for print, had a phone conference with a partner on one event, finalized contract details on our host hotel, filed 2 franchise tax extensions, 2 franchise tax returns, and 1 nonprofit return for family members (no, I can’t take on any more family members), signed contract for online registration for one of our upcoming races & submitted event details to build out the site, finished and approved the design of our sublimated jersey being made for one of our races, edited 2 hours of raw video footage from the Warrior 100K into 1hr 12 minutes, set up an account to be able to upload 6GB of files, uploaded video and pictures to FoxNews, read through a race report for a team we sponsor (FCS Rouse Cycling Team), sent a recap to the Dallas Morning News of our last event, and updated our social media on Facebook and Twitter. No wonder my head was exploding.
I needed to ride and run. When I finished my ride, Dr. Heerwagen was there in the parking lot to offer me a cold beer called Liberty Ale. I had to decline to finish my last run…I couldn’t let that beer cost me the World Championships. But as I slipped on my running shoes and locked my bike to my rack, I came to my senses and asked him to hide it by my front wheel in the shade for after the run. Isn’t that what age groupers are allowed to do? I mean can’t we continue to have a normal life after we train. I think so.
The cold beer was waiting in a bag of ice. I sipped and savored every drop. At that moment in time, my adrenaline was finished running for the day, I was no longer anxious, and I could just relax. Well, sort of, I still had to go to the store, get gas, take a shower, go for 1.5 hours of stretching and myofascial release, fax insurance card to Danielson to purchase his new car, have dinner (thank you, Lil), and pack. Without Scott, I could never have made it, as he washed and detailed my bike, packed all the tools and the car for the trip, and noticed my bike shoes were toast.
My cleats were about to pull out of the bottom and were so thin and chipped off that we were both surprised I made it through my ride today. I could never compete at this level without the loving support of my husband.
My last swim was Monday, and as Coach Tom talked to me about my race, I was anxious. My stomach was churning. Coach Tom told me, “The hay is in the barn. Let’s let it dry and cure a while and then TAKE IT TO THE MARKET! Your will is your constitution. You have written those rules for yourself to define the type of athlete you want to be. Go be you, Girl!”
My dad called to wish me good luck. This made me feel good inside. He also reminded what a bad daughter I have been (these were my words, not his) since I haven’t sent him a picture I promised to send last October. I promised I would for Father’s Day. I realize how busy I have been since I started training for this race. Between working our 15 events a year, and training, there isn’t much time left in the day. Add a family, and I am constantly behind. I am not good at all. Instead, lately I feel I shuffle through my routine like a hamster on her wheel.
My brothers and mom tell me goodluck, and though I know friends and family just want me to have fun and do the best I can, my mind translates that to WIN!
My sister called to tell me she was coming to my race. Now I am even more anxious and Scott reminds me that no one cares how I do, or expects me to win. But I am anxious nether-the-less. I can’t change my genetic makeup. My butterflies are real, not make believe. They are like demons, waiting to change my eating and bathroom habits. I hate them more than anything. I feel like it is more than me racing, it is my entire support crew of family and friends. I don’t want to let anyone down. I want to give it my all, and I know God gave me the talents to win, and so if I don’t, I feel I have fell short.
I attended the nutrition seminar on Monday night to try to figure out how to eat better for my race. Getting the bonks and severe cramping on lap 3 of my mountain bike race a few weeks ago reminded me I need to rethink nutrition. I’m not use to racing anymore. Maybe Jordan was right to make fun of me on the starting line carrying my pack on my back big enough to hold my picnic lunch and a bottle of wine while I raced. Maybe that extra weight held in my body heat and helped me overheat quicker, and thus the cramps.
Well now I’m set, because everything is clear. Start hydrating 24 hours before the event. Not too much though (don’t want hyponatremia). Consume 16oz fluids 2-4 hours before my race. Consume another 8oz before the start. Eat breakfast 3 hours before my race, carb based, low fat, low fiber, moderate protein. Drink small amounts every 15 minutes during race to equal 20 oz or 1 bottle per hour and consume half my body weight in grams of carbs per hour. Got my bento box strapped to my bike and put my carbs (PowerBar energy blasts) and electrolytes (EnduroSharks) in there. Get my carbs and salts in on the bike, before the run so I don’t get behind. Don’t forget to mix my pedialyte with water in one of my bottles, or in my camelback if I go that route. In a perfect world, I will have a perfect race.
I went to Extreme Swim and got a new pair of goggles – the same ones that Iron Dave wears. I have a fresh coating of anti-fog so I can see all the thrashing arms around me when I swim. In a perfect world, the water will be warm and no one will be allowed to wear wetsuits. My friend Sandra and Scott video taped me this past weekend in an open water swim so I could visualize my bad left hand entry into the water and correct it. In a perfect world, I will swim as fast without my wetsuit as I did that day with my wetsuit.
I went to the running store to get new shoes, but had to settle on a new pair of barefoot shoes for now. I couldn’t find my favorite trail runners, so I will run in last year’s shoes for good luck. “Something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue”. Oh wait, that is for getting married. But in a perfect world, this will still work. I was also too busy to meet the deadline for ordering my 2012 racing kit. I’ll be the one sporting the 2011 Team USA outfit (but hey, at least it’s old and blue, in keeping with this theme).
Stopped on the way to the race today to get a new pair of mtn bike shoes. Scott already put the cleats on tonight so I can pre-ride in them tomorrow. He claims I will have bonus horsepower from the new stiff shoes and my cleats are actually in the right place now. I know he is trying to give me confidence, but in a perfect world, he will be right and I will get extra confidence from the extra power I feel with every pedal stroke.
It is after midnight, 3 nights before the race, and I am anxious. The countdown begins.
I miss having Danielson here with me to compete. Last year in Spain was a memory of a lifetime. Somehow racing with my own son took the pressure off, as I think I was more concerned and excited about his race than mine.
I’ve been given all the tools I need to succeed. Both Coach Tom & Daniel have prepared me for the race with training programs and coaching, I have done the work, I have been humbled in races, and I am hungry for the win. Scott & I were fortunate to have participated in the Warrior 100k mtn bike ride a few weeks back, and the amazing soldiers we witnessed first hand were such an inspiration. They all gave up incredible parts of themselves to serve our country, and would do it again in a heartbeat. Some of them were missing limbs or had PTSD, and as we rode with these soldiers, we realized how blessed we are to be able to live in a free America that they make possible. I am thankful that my sons did not have to go to war, but if they had, I know I would have been so very proud of them too. I want to do well for Team USA, and being able to represent Team USA somehow takes the pressure off me as an individual. Maybe that is why a strange calm came over me last year in Spain and I was able to deliver. I hope the same for Saturday, but if not, will be happy to just give it my all.
Sounds like a pep talk – a self induced one at that. So if that’s true, and I get knocked down, just know that I’m gonna bleed, then I’m gonna bleed some more, then I’m gonna get up and fight, and fight some more, and go for it, until I hit the finish line. (this was my favorite inspirational video we got last year in Spain). In a perfect world, I will stay on my bike. And in a perfect world, I will bring home another gold medal from the world championships to share with my grandkids someday.
Here is the link for the race. I’ll be the Team USA member in the 45-49 age group category.
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